You make me smile and tear at the same time.

You get me so mad one second and make me laugh hard the other.

You make me feel beautiful and special.. and then you disappear.

You are the cause of my best smiles and my most painful frowns.

You can make me extremely and undeniably happy.

..and then you make me miserably filled with unbearable sadness.

You make me wanna wake up everyday for your first hello-

..and despise the rising of the moon for your last goodbye.

You get me excited, nervous, joyful and sad.

You get me worried, scared, and then you comfort me with your charming choice of words.

You make me love you, hate you, a cliche that's simply true.

My strongest emotions always come from you.

You are my beautiful extremity, and I just can't let you go..

....nor do I seem to want to..

Promotion

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Pizza with friends

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One whole day with him

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A very happy birthday for me!

Much to my hatred, I was sick yesterday. I had to skip school and rest for the whole day. Good thing I didn't miss much in school. Just yellow paper seatworks and an hour or more of psychological tests.

And goodbye plus two's. I'll then go back to trusting my useless principle that I don't really need the plus two if I work hard. But we all know I still need them. Cuz I can never work hard enough.

Anyway, I went to the Psych department this afternoon to inquire about the things I missed. It just made me feel kinda flattered that Sir Ryan, Ma'am Ces, and even Ma'am Joy asked why I was absent yesterday. It's like we're all close, like real friends, or colleagues.

I'm learning sign language, btw. It's fun.

a collection of cheesy .jpeg and .gif that are worth sharing..

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its our site G.A. later and in a bit im off to E.K.! pls be gentle EK, its my first time.. haha!

There's a very high probability that I'm going to spend my birthday at home and alone.  Hmpf, that's just sad.

My love for you hurts like continuous and repeated stabs in my heart.

It's like walking on broken glasses on fire.. piercing through my bare feet and slicing through my very skin.

You hurt deep-
and with a blank face, you stare at me.. watching my every step through that excruciatingly painful obstacle.
I stare back at you.. wanting to get as close to you as I can.

I drag my feet thru the broken glasses- pieces of them penetrating thru my skin..
My fingers can feel the agonizing pain now...
My heart is pounding with my head.. my ears are bleeding from the sound...
the heat is getting stronger..

I don't scream.
I don't make any sound.
I swallow the pain and try to force a smile.
My eyes are still on you.

I am burning... in pain, yes, but more in the desire to get over to you. I keep on it.. starting to feel numbness all over... I dont look anywhere else but your eyes.

I dont feel my legs anymore. I dont feel anything, anymore.
I'm getting closer.. inches and inches closer.. your gaze becoming clearer.. your eyes look blank.

Please don't turn away.. I love you.

from GMAnews.TV ---

The number of bodies recovered from the grisly Maguindanao massacre has now reached 46, an Army officer said Tuesday evening.

Lt. Col. Rolando Nerona, commander of the Philippine Army’s 46th Infantry Battalion, said 24 more bodies have been unearthed from the presumed massacre site at Salman Village in Ampatuan town in Maguindanao province before sundown Tuesday.

“Our last accounting showed there are 46 (dead) already," said Nerona. “Twenty-two were found above ground while 24 were dug up today."

Authorities had earlier recovered on Monday the bodies of 22 victims killed in the politically-motivated massacre. They were among a group of some 50 men and women, including lawyers and journalists, who were abducted by an estimated one hundred armed men reportedly belonging to the camp of Governor Andal Ampatuan of Maguindanao province.

They were about to file a certificate of candidacy in behalf of Esmael “Toto" Mangudadatu, vice mayor of Buluan town, who planned to run against Ampatuan’s son Andal Jr. for the gubernatorial post.

Chief Superintendent Josefino Cataluna, police regional director for Soccsksargen, said the police have already identified 20 of the fatalities.

Among them are Toto’s wife, Genalyn Tiamzon-Mangudadatu, and Toto's sister Eden Mangudadatu, the incumbent Vice Mayor of Mangudadatu town in Maguindanao.

Cataluna also said that survivors in the fateful incident have yet to surface as of posting time.

President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo placed the provinces of Maguindanao and Sultan Kudarat as well as Cotabato City under a state of emergency to prevent violence from further erupting following the incident.

The digging and recovery operations have been halted Tuesday evening due to difficulties of working in darkness, Nerona said. They were expected to resume Wednesday morning.

Rival political clans 'willing to cooperate'

Meanwhile, Presidential Adviser on Mindanao Affairs Jesus Dureza said the rival political clans assured him that they will cooperate with government investigations.

In an interview with GMA News "24 Oras," Dureza said the Ampatuans, including Andal Sr., ARMM Governor Zaldy and Datu Unsay Mayor Andal Jr., have expressed willingness to “submit themselves to whatever investigations" after they were implicated in the killings.

The Mangundadatus, for their part, assured that their family would not avenge the death of their relatives and would instead allow the government to resolve the conflict, he said.

Dureza, who heads the crisis management committee, also clarified that his meetings with the Ampatuans were not to determine which party was guilty but to prevent any untoward incident from further erupting “because of the high emotions now prevailing."

“I also said that the government will apply the full force of law whoever is at the receiving end," said Dureza.

Press secretary Cerge Remonde said Tuesday that both families are known as allies of President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo's administration.

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STOP KILLING JOURNALISTS!

My mind is confused, not knowing what to think. Is it this? Is it that? A thought appears, and it becomes sure. Until another comes by and destroys the existence of the last.

Back and forth, the mind struggles to keep still. To remain with one idea and stick strong to its argument.

Such a battle, started only because of one thing, one person, one you. You.

So many mixed feelings, flowing within me. Worry, joy, confusion, anger, annoyance, sympathy... and emptiness.

Why do you do this to me? This isn't the first time either. I just wanted to be close to you. To be able to hold you when you need to be held. To be able to laugh with you when you're happy. And even to be able to cry with you when you want to let it all out.

There are times that you let me do just that... but there are times when you push me away. You seem so distant. My mind just can't comprehend.

I love you. I really do.

So please, this time... don't leave me again... or at least if you're going to... let me know.

That way I can get myself ready for what's going to happen without you by my side.