I'm a thinker.

I think A LOT.

I analyze every word, every action, every detail.

After we talk, I still keep playing our conversation in my head, looking for loop holes, looking for 'something wrong', a 'mistake', a 'sign', something that 'doesn't add up',..

I always question. I always think. I always expect the worst...

..no matter how much fun I've had or how happy I felt at the moment.

                                       I'm tired of that.

I wanna stop thinking that everybody's out to deceive me, to prey on my emotions, to make a fool of me..

I don't know why I do it... maybe because I'm scared. Maybe because I can't forget past hurts. Maybe because I don't love myself enough to just plainly ACCEPT that I'm happy.. that's why I keep on finding faults about my happiness.

I rob myself of JOY and PEACE...


I wanna stop.

I am so happy... but I am also so tempted to question this happiness again.


This time though, I WON'T.


I choose to stay happy.


Life is beautiful =)

My mom bought me a new pair of jeans. Yey! However, it's size 28! Booo! I know I gained weight but I'm not THAT fat. I think I have to remind my mom that despite my weight gain, I still wear size 25-26 jeans. Tsk, mothers. Sometimes, they tend to exaggerate things a bit

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Five more days before Gatch and I celebrate our 6th year anniversary. Yey!

Last year we went to Baguio.  This year... Well, we don't know yet but Tagaytay is the most viable option. We're also considering Cebu and Bohol, but air fares are too expensive now. Hay nako, sinabihan ko na kasi siya dati na magbook na kami habang may promo ang Cebu Pacific eh!  Baguio is also an option, if it's recovered from the typhoons (has it?). He's coming over tomorrow so we can make plans.

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November 4, 2009 at 09:44 AM in Gatch and I | comments?

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It's first day of classes on the 11th and I am forced to say hello to Psychometrics (lab), BMA2 (lab&lec), World Lit, Bio-organic Chem, and Social Psychology. I'm kind of excited for everything, most especially for World Lit which happens to be one of the lightest in the bunch. And unbelievably, I am excited for Bio-chem, given the reality that I hated Chem since I found out how it is taught in college.

Science subjects always make me want to ponder why I chose science over art. I could have taken AB instead of BS and I could have been doing a lot better now.

I never understood why new things excite me. And after they're not new anymore, I get lazy and unmotivated.

And I must say, Channing Tatum is hot.

thinking hard if i should keep my promise or just forget about it...

tangina kase si pat e, ayan tuloy nagiisip ako. tsk.

It's already a given fact that family, friends, school and work (yes, you read it right. WORK) makes me happy. But aside from those that I've mentioned, there are certain things that makes me smile these past few days and has kept me from updating this space (sorry!)

Just to make it more exciting, i'll be including some photos!

I have been listening to Paramore's Brand New Eyes album since it came out and I must say that this band really rules! Srsly. And oh, Hayley's growing on me already. I love her to pieces! I'm following her on her twitter account!  

I read while listening to BNE. I'm already done with Kinsella's Twenties Girl and I must say that Sophie never disappoints! I laughed and got teary-eyed cos of the book. It's a must read! I've just started with Brown's latest novel but so far so good

Shining Inheritance is love! It's a must watch. If you haven't seen it yet, what's wrong with you darling?! Go watch it in MySoju And oh, that guy over there is Kim Bum from BOF. No, I haven't seen it yet (Duh!) but his soda TVC with Maja Salvador is just so kaka-kilig! He's such a sweetheart

The reason why I lack update is because of my microblogging thru Twitter and Facebook status bar

Finally, I'm excited for this:

**squeee!**

P.S.

I just deleted my plurk account

Habit ko na talaga ang basa-basahin ang mga nakaraan kong mga blogs. Nakaka-miss nga, eh. Feeling ko kasi, hindi na ko makulit. Mas seyoso na ako ngayon, I think.

Kailangang lumandi.

It's November?...seriously?!

Wow.

And it's already Week 6. Holy crazzapples.

Trick-or-treating was EPIQQ. Yes, with multiple Q's. Laurel, Lorena, and I were embarassingly color-coordinated. I was a purple "forest creature" with fairy wings, Laurel was a fairy princess, and Lorena was a Mamegoma seal. Lorena was attacked with Silly String by four elementary school boys. The houses in Turtle Rock are freakin inteeense.

Brittany and Andy came over yesterday...morning. At like 2 AM. Well actually, 1 AM since Daylight Savings gave us an extra hour ;P I ended up making pancakes at 2 AM and then Laurel and Andy played a rousing game of Chess. Of course, we were all delirious as fsck. Laughing at everything...wondering why didn't just go to sleep already. Hahh.

Yesterday (day), Lorena and I went on a mega shopping adventure to Ikea, Party City, Target, Urban Outfitters and Tokyo Lifestyle to find stuff to decorate our apartment with. After a day of moving furniture, decorating, and cleaning, we turned in our photos to the "Coolest Room Contest" at 11:58 PM. The contest closed at 12 AM. Haha. WIN.

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