I am certainly feeling so out of any event, cliques, or whatsoever. Lately, I've been feeling so far from the people I used to be close to. And I don't blame anyone but myself in this. I decided to stay away from the conflicts and problems ... and that meant cutting the hang-out time with the people who tend to gravitate or start drama. I didn't ignore or avoid anyone, I just decided to be busy with something else.

Hmmm... I don't even know where I'm going with this but I don't necessarily feel bad about it.. nor good. Maybe I'm just getting used to this. OR maybe this isn't what I'm supposed to do?

Anyways, I haven't written anything here in such a long time. =)

BTW, last night I had a long conversation with one of my favorite people in the world. (haha) I love talking to her, and I miss her right now. I'll see her tonight hopefully. She makes me feel like... I'm not out of the box.

"It's going to be brand new."

I'm really hoping that this is it.

On a different note, let me just say this. I don't know if everyone felt the same way but about a month ago we had a church picnic and the purpose of that camp was to fix up family relationships. Before that I really loved my relationship with my family. My siblings did, too. So during the camp ... there were a lot of things that I picked up and agreed with. But the approach that was used to "fix" did not really help. After that camp, my parents acted differently... and not a good different. 

And with all honestly.... I wish my family did not go to that camp. Bah.

Woah, that entry triggered a lot of... things? I don't even know what to call them.

Just to say this, I didn't really mean anything big about the out of the box thing. It was one of those spur of the moment entries ... maybe I should really think about what I type here. I appreciate all the kind words that was said, sent, and commented but I'm not that far. LOL. I keep just enough distance to still be able to reach everyone. It might feel very far now just because it wasn't the same as before. I know I need people and people need me which is why I didn't ignore anyone. I'm sorry if it sounded so dramatic but it really isn't. haha. I'm here if needed, you guys all know that. And I come when I need you. Gamitan 'to mga, pre. (JOKES)

My dad left to get the nametags printed for the Youth Conference this weekend. That took me a while to make since I got no access to software. (Oh Adobe, how I miss thee). So I'm left alone with the squirrel scratching on the wall (Hannah named him/her Vlad) and the three Chinese guys who took our kitchen apart yesterday, now they're fixing it. I'm excited to see what it will look like. So the house is pretty noisy and I can't concentrate... I don't even remember why I needed to concentrate. Blah.

P.S. I am nervous for tomorrow. I'm not even part of anything. haha! Be praying for it.

I enjoy cooking, doing the laundry, cleaning the kitchen, and fixing my closet.

Wee... =)

Anyways, I'd like to thank Pao, Ate Sheelz, and the other Kuya Carlo. (LOL) They force me in a very "unforceful" way. Thanks for the encouragement yesterday. I'm still undecided about it. I know I can't do it but thanks for believing that I can. =P You guys are ugly, you three had to say something about it on the same day. HAHA I keed. But really, I appreciate it.

It's odd, I don't miss school one bit. Uhoh... but yeah, I'll go back. I have to. It's for my future.. blah blah blah. I'm glad I have this break though. As bad as it was in the beginning, this is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Well for now. One day it will feel so bad again that I'd want to go back to school.

Oh, we have a new renovated kitchen. It looks so good that my parents sleep late because they're spending way too much time in the kitchen. haha! We'll be renovating everything else after. We finished the roof already and then the sidings of the house. The reason why we're renovating the whole house because we want to sell it. There's 6 of us and only 3 bedrooms. We got no privacy and now that we're all getting older, we really need it. I don't know where we're moving but I'm pretty sure we're staying in Mississauga.

I miss going out. I'm kind of missing Toronto again.

Alrighty, I'll go back doing the laundry. God Bless everyone.

Thank Alex for coming back. =)

Mr. Beautiful mouth is back.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA *takes a breath* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH.

Oh-MY-GOSH!

Okay time to explain. My boyfriend showed me this video a few days ago. A guy under the username "buffalax" on YouTube made this video. It's an Indian music video and he added subtitles to it.. not the translation but what he thinks it sounded like in English. (hee-la-rious)

THEN, David Choi, teh crazy guy he is... did a cover. HAHA!

Thanks for the birthday wishes! Also, thank you for the "surprise" party. *Hugs Pao* I didn't really want it until I had it. =) Thank you for knowing me better, =P.

And now people owe me dates! Woot! Can't wait =).

[ ] Ate Sheelz

[ ] Iza

[ ] Number Crew <-- yeah boi, Shinks is paying. lol!

Also, my mom still owes me an ice cream cake. =9 yummay!

Happy birthday to the September babies!

Negz, Sen, Tsuk, Angel, and uh... (insert your name here if you're also a September baby)